The Depths of A Christian Mind... or at least mine Romans 8:5-18 How can I love people if my thoughts are not loving? How often have I thought the most horrible of things and not even batted an eyelash? How many times do I give into my emotions within my mind and then feel their true effects later? How many times have I played out situations again and again in my mind, that only hurt me more, or distort the truth, or even convince me of things that are not true? I have come to realize that as I struggle to hear God's voice more and as I become desperate for any bit of word from him that I am allowing my mind to be filled with the ungodly. I do not know how this began. I never use to think such mean, lustful and just plain sinful thoughts. But I feel like like these things I think are not really me. These thoughts go through my head and when I catch them I wonder where they even came from. These thoughts are not me. They are not who I am. They do not define my true emotion. So why then do I think them? Why are they present in my life? If these are not who I am, then why are they here? To what purpose could these thoughts serve? Not one of a loving King. Not one of a person who helps those in need and does not look down on others but seeks to meet them at their lowest points. As one approaches a mirror one can see more clearly the flaws that lie within the object in the mirror. I am hoping that this is why these things bother me to the extent that they do, that it is because I am growing closer to God and not because I am being prideful. My mother informs me that I psychoanalyze everything to much and that I should not post these things as I do. However, in this instance I think she is wrong. (well I do psychoanalyze almost everything and I am working on that) I think that to share what one is thinking and feeling with others is important. Perhaps I should do so in some kind of private way with only a few people, but, sometimes I just feel like we are to private about everything in our lives. How much simpler would life be if we just told each other the truth, in love? The truth for the reason of improving things instead of tearing each other down? I am not perfect. I do not hold the answers to any question about life. However, I hold to a few truths that have been proven again and again in my life. I need to be in the presence of God. I want this more then anything. John 13:34-35, Colossians 3:12-15, James 1:22-25 Love yah, | 
